Jay's Dear Diary

Dearest Friend, Amazingly, it all started sometime after being enrolled in the special school. Of course, the initial change was quite strange and upsetting – and a huge part of me felt I didn’t belong there. For me, it was symbolical of my famil

Dearest Friend, Growing up, I never gave the concept of God, or spiritual matters, much thought… I mean, of course, as a born Catholic I occasionally went to Sunday mass with my Grandmother, took confession, went to religiously structured schools

Friday night, 3rd June 2016 Dearest friend, Do you believe in God? Tonight, I’m feeling profoundly inspired; extremely happy and humble – and I give thanks to the universe for this turn on my emotions! In this letter I would like to explore

Tuesday, 31st May 2016 Dearest friend, Recently my beautiful sister Cindy celebrated her Confirmation! I was able to get the early bus down to Sligo to attend the church ceremony, which took place at the Sligo Cathedral around morning time. As a s

Monday, 30th May 2016 Dearest friend, I read James’s letter from the 13th on the bus back to Galway yesterday; it was a very emotional read for me! I find it hard to articulate how I’m feeling sometimes. It’s hard to explain to people that I somet

13th May 2016 Jay, I hope this finds you well. Firstly, as always, it was good to hear from you during the week. You are always in my thoughts, so when you make contact it always brings a smile to my face and generally a good buzz. It was disapp

Thursday, 26th May 2016 Dearest friend, Counselling this week has given me a huge wake-up call… The counsellor wasn’t very happy that I missed last week’s session and turned up yesterday fifteen minutes late. She could easily have called off th

Sunday, 22nd May 2016 Dearest friend, Over a week has passed since my last rant, so little has changed… My hunger for the weekend was just as intense as the last; I looked forward to getting away and closing the lid around my everyday worries. Just

Friday, 13th May 2016 Dearest friend, The last week has been a boring one; I’ve been feeling so restless lately that I’ve been on the lookout for new ways of enjoying myself. There seems to be progress made within my counselling sessions…but I can

Thursday, 28th April 2016 Dearest Friend, This month has been an intense one. Since my return from Finland I’ve been more focused on counselling and getting through my emotional issues. As I briefly mentioned before, I took my GP’s advice and am co

Monday, 4th April 2016 Dearest Friend, My last days in Finland weren’t as bleak as my experiences were probably described previously; actually they were wonderful… I just go through moments sometimes where things feel too heavy to bear, but almost

Sunday, 27th March 2016 Dearest Friend, Unfortunately I’ve had to resort to using a marker pen because my previous quantities have all inked out… I’m mostly unhappy about this because I prefer to write in the same font (inky pen) in all of my noteb

Sunday, 20th March 2016 Dearest Friend, Once I got full confirmation about being accepted for the Erasmus programme and was eligible for the Erasmus Grant (which covers all travel expenses and includes enough spending money to triple the actual tri

Wednesday, 16th March 2016 Dearest Friend, I can’t believe I hadn’t the time to tell you sooner, but a great surprise has come my way… I was so wrapped up in my own concerns and focused on my overall personal development that I hadn’t the space in

Monday, 14th March 2016 Dearest Friend, I’ve gone roughly over another week of taking meds; I’m beginning to get used to it in my every day routine.  This battle against depression doesn’t feel impossible anymore. Actually, before when I didn’t gi