Monday, 14th March 2016
Dearest Friend,
I’ve gone roughly over another week of taking meds; I’m beginning to get used to it in my every day routine.
This battle against depression doesn’t feel impossible anymore. Actually, before when I didn’t give my issue a name, everything seemed unbearable and, for sure, well blown out of proportion.
It was like my depression had more of a hold on my dealings than I did, instead when I allow more rational persuasion and instigate against triggering habits to occur, I know now there are many well solutions to prevent me falling into low moods – and because of this I feel more in control!
And from this realization, I’ve attempted being more proactive lately; if even in small amounts, to just feel that bit further from my depressive episodes.
Philo sees this as a form of inner denial, but I don’t. I think it’s good to be productive, to have goals and have reason for optimism…
Life doesn’t end here – I have many reasons to work towards keeping a strong peace of mind.
I’ve did a bit of research this week and apparently depression is more common than not and most people (strong, mind you!) will experience depression at some point in their lives.
It seems that the big issue people have with depression or suffering with this mood disorder is eventually being able to surpass it.
I completely disagree but Philo thinks it comes down to people’s personalities that they would suffer depression long term, but I think it comes down to finding the right treatments and action plans, as well as finally being able to accept the issues that trigger the depression to take its toll.
Depression has been described by some as a deep level of sadness (or self-loathing) that can be related in frequency and it’s symptoms like the way a person would grieve, except depression seems more unpredictable and as though it “never ends” for the more pessimistic minds.
I won’t accept that given attitude in my every day, but I can’t deny that before I was aware I had depression the thought of too much misery certainly occurred to me, but that was because the circumstances really were miserable. However, we’ve had enough of that.
Let’s work towards positive changes that we have more control over; not people or events out of our making!
I like to think that my medication-taking is a good step towards long-term wellness and positive well-being in future; I don’t exactly want to see myself depending on antidepressants for the rest of my life, but in the meantime it’s helping me keep a level-head – especially when I experience depressive lows…
I guess the focus is to remain concentrated on the positives in my life, like the wonderful friends I have, and the goal is to keep active and mentally sharp.
Hanging out with my friends, going to the movies, listening to inspiring music and reading something relevant, are all a huge help to advancing on a good day, or creating a better sense of positivity…
I’m no fool, either. I know that I will also experience not such good days and everything may feel heavy and impossible to harbour enough energy, but I suppose once I make it part of my routine to do some positive and feel-good activities throughout my week, I will soon learn to be more disciplined and head-strong once in the amidst of facing harder times…
So let’s stay motivated and think more kindly of ourselves!
Yours, Jay.