Florence-Farah's Dear Diary

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Crying to sleep.
I go to bed early, around 10pm because I already know The first 2 hours will go by crying, having a meltdown.. And finally fall asleep with squinty eyes that’s tired from crying so much every night. I guess you could call my diary a “depressing dia
Sep 14
So used to the pain.
I’m so used to being told to get over it It’s not a big deal It’s nothing Stop being dramatic It‘s not that hurtful It doesn’t matter Ignore it Forget it There’s nothing wrong Nothing to cry about I always hear them, So much That somehow
Sep 14
Too much attention and too less attention.
Dear Diary, I figured something out. Some habits are hard to break out of. My ex conditioned me to always be on the phone and talk to him and would torture me if I wasn’t texting him for quite a bit.. He told me it’s one of the reasons why he lost
Sep 12
Poem: Wailing Heart.
I do not matter is how I feel But is it real? I sit there, in the darkness Wondering why I feel Melancholy. Am I really perceived the way I view myself, Or is it paranoia? My insecurities range inside whilst I conceal them from the surface. Th
Aug 10
Putting a toxic relationship behind
Dear Diary, Was in a toxic relationship(He was verbally abusive) last year and he kept breaking up and coming back to me and made me feel like a terrible person and guilted me like I'm not the type of girlfriend that'll support their boyfriends no
Jul 31
Importance of a Friendship First before anything else.
"You don't know what I look like when I'm not in love with you" This sentence right here, this is it; possibly one of my fears - Of falling in love with someone so quickly before actually getting to know them. Knowing what a person is like before th
Jul 10
A heart-to-heart my anxiety.
Dear Diary, why do I always have to think deep before bed? It’s hard to fall asleep and I really wish I could shut my thoughts off. I was in a little argument/misunderstanding earlier and I felt a little upset and noticed myself tear up a little.
Jul 03
June2020, My Werner
Dear Diary, Cutie Werner has been on my mind for months, I’ve been swooning over him for months! Technically I didn’t really want a relationship again.. but with him? I see the possibility of one! A very certain 95% possibility. It’s been 6 mo
Jun 29
June 2020, Werner thing.
Dear Diary,                 I find myself looking at his pictures before I sleep quite often, it makes me smile. I screenshot some of the important chats, just to re-read them as they bring glee to my soul.       He seems too perfect and that’s no
Jun 28
June 2020, Werner thing- Describing the Guy I’m seeing.
Dear Diary, I can’t believe I really went from having a boyfriend that would never apologize for every kind of fucked up thing he did frequently TO a guy who won’t stop apologizing! won’t stop saying sorry for the very little things even if there’s
Jun 23