Overtheclouds 's Dear Diary

Dear Diary, i just wanna kill myself. i hate myself. and i hate my circumstances.

Dear Diary, to be honest, the empty feeling is still right here. It feels as if it is on its way to fade away but it keeps turning back again and again.  Tomorrow i will have psychology exam and i am kinda prepared but kinda not. I cant focus o

Dear Diary, yesterday was another day of the prove that friendships are the worst thing one can have. surely one cannot say this about every friendship but .. every friendship i had was just.. i regret making friends. friends are here to fade aw

Dear Diary, i am freaking insecure about my body. to be honest, since many years. i starved a lot, i ate a lot, i did sports and diets but at the end, i end up crying and comparing myself to other people who are much skinnier than i am.  according

Dear older me, all i ever wanted was to be with you.

Dear Diary, i don't know why i love autumn and winter so much even though some terrible things have happened a few years ago during these seasons. i keep thinking of those things and im crying and regretting but nevertheless i feel home when we hav

Dear Diary, i. went. for. a. run. OUTSIDE. and im kinda proud of myself that i did it.

Dear me, I wanna improve myself. (Since years actually.) However, I wanna be more sporty. My current goal: be skinny and sporty.  Goal for tomorrow (in a few hours): Wake up at 4am and workout for one or two hours. (In my bedroom.) After that, I w

Dear me, it's hard. It's all hard. Life is hard.

Dear Diary, despite wanting to, I need to stop caring for him, feeling indifferent to his life problems and perceive him as my friend. I will not move on this way, we have to do it alone, even if it’s going to be much harder.  I need to listen to my

First, let me say that your worth as a woman, partner, and human being is not tied to your physical ability to have sex or provide anything to anyone. The fact that you worked so hard to address your chronic pain shows how much you cared about your r

Pleasing - Danger - Strength I was pleasing sexually too much the people in my past, and they used me and hurt me sexually too many times. I wasn’t strong enough to say “No, I don’t like it” - I was too weak and too busy pleasing them. Then I became

Nobody can replace anybody else, so it would be a shame to make it a competition.And no love is like any other love, so it would be a shame to make a comparison with you.

Dear Diary, he left me just before New Year. I think there’s nothing left of me now but pain and grieve and fear. Also exhaustion, I didn’t sleep almost at night. I really forgot what it’s like to wake up from emotional pain and start howling and cry

People have so much to tell through books, movies and art. Thank god they don’t stay silent. Maybe I won’t be able to have a regular friendship or a conventional romantic relationship, but at least I can always listen to them through these things the

There are so many ways to live inside a tragedy. You can suffer without making others feel guilty.

I just woke up and I feel like I’m the loneliest person in the world. My husband feels anything towards me but admiration or interest, all the people I’m trying to become closer with are so boring and conventional. I’m stuck in loneliness without pri

On my way from work, the bus driver called me “la chica del libro”, I was so happy to hear that!

Why do we want to own everything? Why knowing that it exists somewhere in this world isn’t enough? Why do we want these things for us?