Dice's Dear Diary

Index
July 29, 2021
I confronted her about it today instead of letting it grow as a lifelong resentment. Cried uncontrollably the entire time because I bottled up so much up to that point. I poured my heart out and let her know everything I felt up until now. She even t
Jul 29
July 28, 2021
I didn't feel hungry for several days up until this noon. But the moment I felt anger, I started craving for food like crazy. It's like I'm eating my feelings because I couldn't express my anger properly. You couldn't get it out of your system so you
Jul 28
July 28, 2021
At this rate, my mom is deliberately trying to find any small flaws she could on me just to make me feel bad about myself. I don't know why I'm the only one being targeted when my other siblings have only done the bare minimum. They don't get treated
Jul 28
July 27, 2021
Been dealing with a lot of heavy emotions and it feels like it's getting heavier by the week. I'm tired
Jul 27
July 27, 2021
Blackie passed away this morning.
Jul 27
July 26, 2021
Blackie, one of the stray cats that has been eating at our place was found badly injured today. Something could've happened to him last night because he seemed fine yesterday. I did noticed that he hasn't been eating as much as he used to in the past
Jul 26
July 25, 2021
I haven't talked about this in a while but recently, my ex best friend came to mind. Our friendship didn't end in the best terms. As a matter of fact, she continued to harass, d*x me, giving me death threats for about a year. I held on to my hatred a
Jul 25
July 24, 2021
I miss home
Jul 23
July 23, 2021
I fasted today and food felt strangely.. rewarding? Life's gotten less stressful once I stopped thinking about men and love lol. No more worrying about who and when someone's going to text me.  I think I'm able to redirect my focus in a better place.
Jul 23
July 22, 2021
It was a good day. I actually woke up..early?! Attended the course I randomly signed for. The instructor was cute hahaha. Found some old photos and went down on a memory lane. Got some things done. Then I went out for a walk and took some pictures an
Jul 22
July 21, 2021
I was learning photoshop earlier from YouTube and edited a photo. It feels good to learn  something new. There are multiple of hobbies I feel like picking up right now but there's only so much time. My brain is all over the place because I want to do
Jul 21
July 21, 2021
Thought it was going somewhere but I was wrong. It's been weeks since I last heard from him. He's not coming back and I'm stuck here with the feelings I didn't want to have since the very beginning.
Jul 20
July 20, 2021
I tried using cornflour and coconut oil as hair mask today. My hair looks shiny and silky for once. I'd say it worked. Maybe I'll try mixing the paste with some rice water next time. They say it's good for the hair.
Jul 20
July 19, 2021
When you're not living a life your soul came here to live, the body cries. It pleads to you through distress, emotional pain and illnesses until you decide to listen it.
Jul 19
July 05, 2021
Dear Diary, like hell i'm going to spend the rest of my life doing something i hate. i didn't asked to be born to walk on eggshells and tolerate shitty situation or face shitty people daily, compensate for everything i lacked in my childhood or
Jul 05