Dice's Dear Diary

December 30, 2021 - sad bud
i think the one most important lesson i learned this year is that; no matter how much you've done for others or how good you've been to them, you won't be appreciated if you're surrounded by the wrong people. i think i overcompensated for the one thi
Dec 30
December 29, 2021
why do i buy journals/planners, fill them in for a few days, forget where i put them the entire year and find them just before this year ends?
Dec 29
December 20, 2021 - random
sometimes i envy celebs or artists because they can do bizarre things and go crazy with their mvs or artistry and get away with it. there's a sense of freedom there because you get to express yourself however you want and lose yourself in it in the n
Dec 20
December 18, 2021 - dream, dreams
anyway, referring to the dream i had a week ago.  sure enough, we had some of the worst flood today and it happened in several states just like what i described in the dream. awful rain, very strong wind in other states. there's probably more coming
Dec 18
December 18, 2021 - random
you can't convince me that humans aren't the result of a hybrid gone wrong. imo, we're probably one of the ugliest mammals exist today. our hair is so ugly and dry, not to mention it's not evenly distributed throughout the whole body. you can't even
Dec 18
Dec 11
December 10, 2021 - dream
Had a few dreams about the country going through some natural disasters. Huge floods in several states. I travelled to this one particular state. The place wasn't dry or barren to begin with but they wanted to make the land flourish so they experimen
Dec 10
December 01, 2021 - part 2
Everyone else got some kind of gift but me. I got nothing. It's not really about the gift, I just want to feel included. It feels unfair that everyone else got something but I didn't. It didn't have to be something expensive, a cheap thing would do.
Dec 01
December 01, 2021 - vent. angry
Be careless for all I care. But when you're careless and you're making it inconvenient for those around you. That's another level of annoying. Why do other people have to go all their way to clean up for your mess?  So. Many. Things. To. Be. Angry. A
Dec 01
November 30, 2021
I think I have such deep seated hatred towards men in general and that's what  keeping me alone. My past experiences with them haven't been great either. All the male friends I had were jackass. Almost none of them were faithful. Not to mention the a
Nov 30
November 30, 2021 - vent
I swear to God, men here need to learn to control themselves. When are they gonna learn that I'm not dressing up for their attention? Everything I do, I do it for myself. I'm sick of covering myself up just to avoid from getting harassed or catcalled
Nov 30
November 28, 2021 - sunday
I layered my front hair earlier. The haircut doesn't look too obvious but I think it gives my hair a bit more volume. They don't look as flat anymore. Initially I wanted to go for wolf haircut but I don't really trust myself with scissors lol. Made m
Nov 28
November 27, 2021 - weekend
I dread waking up on a weekend. The cleaning, chores, errands I have to do. Excluding the time I was high on meds, I don't remember the last time I slept in on purpose. Somehow, I managed to get everything..well almost everything done before 12. My b
Nov 27
November 25, 2021 - dream, again
Following what I wrote the other day. Ironically, I dreamt about him again last night. And it got even worse. The dream was even more vivid than the last two dreams. In the dream, I found out that he has been keeping my old stuffs in his drawers, thi
Nov 25
November 24, 2021 - vent/dream
This is the second I dreamt about an old flame and it's the same theme as the last one. In both of the dreams, I found out that he had a new girl. I wasn't upset, mad or anything. Actually, I wasn't too sure of what I felt in the dream. But in real l
Nov 24