December 13, 2025

Dear Diary,

My loved ones just asked me if I'm okey. 

But how can I tell them I'm not and I never will be. Even with him by my side, I'm not okey. I have depression, anxiety and more and it's easier wit him by my side but I was like this before and I don't stopped just because he came into my life.

He gives me so much love, so much peace but... it doesn't change what I am inside. 

Broken and bleeding. And he can't heal me, because he didn't break me. 

It hurts, knowing he will blame himself but I can't do anything about it. Because I will never heal from the Wounds he didn't create. I blame myself sometimes. When he is sleeping and I am crying, because why am I crying? There is a Man beside me and he loves me more than anyone ever did but I still feel unwanted, unloved and just depressed. He can't change it. He could give me so much but I would still feel the Emptyness, the frustation, the loneliness. No one can take this pain away..