Na hea's Dear Diary

Dear Diary, I missed u sooooo much.. So much has happened… I am so glad to see it works again🙏🏻

I can’t control myself again. It only took her being kind a couple of times for everything to snap back, for me to miss her so much, for the pain to feel as raw as the day she said we were over.  I hate this life.. because it leads me back to hope,

My love. We exchanged messages and had a call today. She initiated it… and I was drunk. She talked about her busy life, and I stayed silent. She suggested doing shared hobbies together, even though she’s in a relationship. Probably she just wante

I’ve been going through therapy, trying to break my dependence on the person I love, because that love turned out to be a lesson, not the airy dreams I had about a shared future. It feels like I’m rebuilding myself from scratch. I’m not even touchi

“Do you truly love her? Does the absence of her really ache in you? Do you miss her with all the heaviness that comes with longing? Is she someone your life genuinely needs? And in what place, in what role, do you imagine her in your world?”

I keep trying to be “right,” “easy,” “better,” but every time I end up feeling like I’m not enough. Like no one hears me or understands me. And then I realize that the person who used to be the closest stops replying to me. My messages stay ignore

Me: I’m sick, and I feel so bad I can’t even get out of bed. And then there are all these thoughts… There’s no one I can tell how bad I feel. I don’t want to bother anyone. I don’t even want to see anyone. Before, I would’ve dreamed of writing to

Me: It’s funny and pathetic, isn’t it? When you care, but the other person doesn’t. Well… these are just my feelings. Who would ever need them anyway? Answer: No, it’s not funny or pathetic. It’s truly painful. When you give your heart, whe

Bring back my dreams… Bring back my thoughts. I’m so tired of waking up every morning with thoughts of your words, and every night being unable to fall asleep because I’m replaying our conversations, the ones that hurt my heart. Every night, it fee

I hate this reality. I hate living against everything… Please, I just want all this pain to stop. I can’t keep holding onto hopes that only hurt me…

And I knew what loving you would do to me. But I did it anyway.

Dear you, My soul aches unbearably. It feels as if my heart is being squeezed, and I can hardly breathe from the pain inside. How I wish you knew how to keep your promises… How I wish you could prove that not everything in this world is built on

For a moment, I thought it was you… but it wasn’t. Just a stranger…  Someone with the same tastes and the same wounds, yet in a slightly different story…  I was holding on to hope that had nothing to hold on to… Why?! How it wasn’t you? How foolish

Dear Love, I don’t know what’s happening to me… I’m going crazy, but I keep doing foolish things, all because I miss you. No matter how hard I try, I can’t forget you.

Dear Diary, what is perfection? No matter how hard you try to be perfect for someone special, they will still wish that someone else could be like you. That’s just how people are. For one person, you might be the meaning of life, for another - ju