September 01, 2025

Dear World,

Yes, I know I should get my life together if I want to stay alive, I'm aware of that. But please... listen.

"You have to find new friends." -> No. I don't want new friends.

"You have to forget her and move on." -> No. I don't want to forget her, She's part of me.

"You can't just stay at home and do nothing." -> Please, let me stay at home. That's where I feel safest.

"You can find other girls, there are so many out there." -> No. I don't want anyone else.

"You have to go on vacation." -> No. I don't to run away from myself.

"You have to talk to someone." -> No one would truly understand me. Words aren't enough.

"You can't take so many pills." -> Please, let me deal with this in my own way.

"You have to got out." -> But I don't want to. The world outside feels heavier than the one inside. 

Why is that so hard to understand? Why can't "NO" be enough?