Dear Diary,
im always thinking about a change in my life.
i wanna seriously focus about my self cuz im gonna step into my 20s this yr. wanna be responsible to myself by myself.
haha another thing, im not joking.
i need a partner to my life so badly. its not becuz of lack of love or a need to hv romantic moments, just to build up my and his self together, grow together, and learn together. i want to live with him and wanna be more free from the world. i wanna feel that safe.
i wanna express my real feelings to him. wanna let a one person know who i am. i wish and i pray to meet him very soon.
so for that, i need to understand who i am, and wanna get the qualities im expecting from a partner to myself cuz, i cant hv a partner without having that qualities in myself. need to develop and get use to them. so i need a physiological. psychological and social changes in myself.