Edga's Dear Diary

Index
March 23, 2021
Dear Diary,  Tonight I learned I have been seeking forgiveness in the wrong places. My heart is broken. People I felt loved me betrayed me. No one around me understands this pain. I am left with pieces of broken puzzles I didn’t know existed beca
Mar 23
Too tired to Change. 😶‍🌫️
Dear Diary,    Don't know what's the matter with me, but each day that is passing by is making me weaker and more tired. I just don't want to live like this, this is just so painful and boring, I am not made to live like this. I pray every day t
Sep 11
I hate them, not for no Reason. 🫥
Dear Diary,    My parents I just hate them a lot. They are strict with me for absolutely no reason. I do everything they ask for, but where is everything that I ask for? You expect me to behave nicely when you treat me like a piece of shit. Bully
Sep 10
It is just me who think this way 🧠🪫
Dear Diary,    If you don't know, in my previous diaries I have shared how hard time have been for me and all I did is blame the people around me for it.         Never done any good in my life either. Well that aside, things have changed since
Sep 09
Is it Really that Hard? 🥀
Dear Diary,   At this point I think it is just me who cannot try at anything. I am just so tired of this life and just want to move on, but it is too hard for me to move on. I just think I will never see those days I wanted to see, and I won't b
May 07
April & May Update 🌲🌺
Dear Diary,   Been few weeks since I last wrote a diary. That is because I was very tired and done with the toxic environment around me. I don't even try anymore. Hope is just lost. I just have no idea what is going on and where this going. I ca
May 05
My life in a Nutshell
Dear Diary,   I am not able to find a good relationship for myself. People walk in the hallways as couple, and it makes me sad for myself that I am walking alone. And the reason I don't have a relationship is because my parents would not buy me a
Apr 24
Too Stressed out!
Dear Diary,   A week or so ago, I talked about my headache. It was gone over the weekend and now it is back as school has started like it always dose on Monday. Now I understand why I get these headaches; it is because I am too stressed out becau
Apr 15
Sun will Rise, so will We
Dear Friend,              Be gradual and slow as a growing tree.               Be Flamboyant as the sun rises free.            Get out of chaos because it will be the key.        If someone tries to grapple, you just have to flee.  
Apr 10
Headache
Dear Diary,   Last night, I was not able to get great sleep. I have no Idea why I was sweating and having a headache. I did not sleep the whole night. But this morning I thought my sweating and headache will be gone, but it was not gone. I was s
Apr 09
Nothing Has Changed...
Dear Diary,   It’s 5:30 at midnight, I wake up without an alarm. That never happens and I seem to be ready for what I will be facing today. I rise out of the bed, locking myself into the mirror, seeing that there is no black mark below my eyes. I
Apr 08
"How has your day been?"
Dear Friend,   “How has your day been?”, Most people will answer this by saying, “Good”, “Not bad”, or “Great”. They sound normal, don’t they? Well not exactly, about 6-25% of the people saying this are hiding the truth from you. You don’t know w
Apr 04
Forgiveness
Dear Friend,   People always get in an argument. No matter what, to fix this problem the only thing people can do is forgive each other or apologize to each other, which is kind of like forgiveness. The word forgiving is easy to say but hard to
Apr 02
May 24, 2025
Dear Diary, seems like whatever I worked for never comes to me.  I am not understanding, where my hard works are getting wasted. I am familiar with these too that work smarter not harder. Whatever it is, sometimes there comes LUCK unknowingly in
May 24
May 17, 2025
Dear Diary, My body was shaking hell like a leaf!!! What we saw in the movies are not really amazing to experience in real life. It is really true that what we think we become in life, maybe gradually but it's true, it subconsciously gets the envi
May 17
May 02, 2025
Another moody day! get lost all, sorry to block all of you. Byee
May 02
April 26, hobbies
How do you deal with your boredom - sometimes becomes your hobby. It keep changing over the time, while some get passionate about their hobbies and some make career into it. It's how some get so lucky.... While some wise people find happiness in wha
Apr 26
April 23, childhood memories!(10 years back)
Dear Diary, Yesterday, I worked pretty hard—fully focused. It felt like a day well spent. But I do wish I could have done just a little more so that I wouldn't have missed studying any subjects. Still, it was worth it. It’s been almost half a year
Apr 23
April 23, Daily life!
Dear Diary, How does it feel when you work hard, but guess what—you were going in the wrong direction? I’ve started losing hope. I wasn't consistent with my studies, so how can I expect to succeed just after one day of hard work? I just realized t
Apr 22
April 21, 2025
Dear Diary, last night I expressed feelings for my crush here, but I couldn't find it now.  In childhood, I used to write diary to keep the record of my life, I felt the need to keep the record of my feelings, my thoughts.  I was greatly influenc
Apr 21