I' am new. I' am new to my feelings. I' am new to a diary. I' am new to understanding who I' am. I' am new to trying to find my way. Am I a mother? Am I a failure? A daughter? A wife? A child of God? Yes, I am all of these things. I am also new to trying to find my way with all of these things. Do I try too hard to please everyone that I have lost myself? YES! Am I tired of making excuses? Am I tired of not knowing how to handle my feelings or emotions? Am I lost? Yes, I' am. I' am all of these things. I' am also ready. Ready to be held accountable, ready to truly smile with purpose. Ready to understand myself better than I understand others. Ready to make myself proud. Ready to fall in love with me again. I have been lost for too long. A lost girl standing in the dark, cold, and rainy nights waiting for someone to save her. As she stands there looking around, shivering. She see's something in the darkness walking toward her. Reaching out their hand so she can grab it with Her's. Someone coming to save me? she thinks. When the hand gets closer, she notices herself. She realizes then that she never needed anyone but herself to love her, help her, & save her. She WILL be saved.