Dear Diary,
My body was shaking hell like a leaf!!!
What we saw in the movies are not really amazing to experience in real life. It is really true that what we think we become in life, maybe gradually but it's true, it subconsciously gets the environment for us to become like that, try not to think negatively when you are not able to have an optimistic thoughts, or get to discover the negative emotions you are having.(Being philosophical...:)
I was curious about depression back then. So, I follow the same path to get into the same pressure as how most of the depressed students get into mainly about academics and or a career.
I get some medical issue that on going for a checkup get to know that there is a thyroid problem, it took a week to get my report as in rural areas it's hard to get the proper facilities, we have to deal with many stuff with this peace of nature there is a worry for being left alone in these competitive world. So, I ignored this medical checkup, I didn't took a medicine. I was afraid if I may get catch with some serious condition of illness, rather than being ill or consuming medicine I choose to die or bear the illness as much as I can.