April 21, 2025

Dear Diary,

last night I expressed feelings for my crush here, but I couldn't find it now. 

In childhood, I used to write diary to keep the record of my life, I felt the need to keep the record of my feelings, my thoughts. 

I was greatly influence by reading Anne Frank too. 

I keep continuing when my best friend died all of a sudden without a goodbye. I assumed my diary as my friend thinking she is trapped in somewhere all save. She can hear me if I want to tell her, so it was a way to keep talking with her. My best friend used to give me life advice and solutions to my problem, she helped me even after dead too, by writing my emotions, problems in a paper made me realize my mistakes, it shows the solution after knowing what is the exact problem. Thank You Edga. I missed you a lot. It's more than 10 years now, still I am in pain of losing you. I hope you are happy, I hope you can't hear me, I hope you can't see me, I don't want you to feel even a little pain of being separated. 

Love you a lot, I still remember us playing together. You were the first best friend and best cousin in my life. I have found another best friend and best cousin too but you were the first one in both cases. Miss you a lot. I don't know why Today, I just missed you harder.

I wonder how you may look if you were alive, last time we were only in early teenage years. I am in my early adulthood, in my twenties. I bet you would be the most beautiful girl with your humbleness helping nature and intelligent sharp mind. 

I pray and I believe we will meet in future too if there is religion really exists. Otherwise in the form of energy as per science. 

I get attached too easily once I get connected with someone. I don't forget them, never, I may fail in exam by not remembering a simple answer but I remember every small details of how I get connected with someone, everything becomes so special and important for me. 

A friendship is one of the most important thing in my life. 

Family is my strength and friendship is my companion. 

take care~

love you all.

good night~