Dear Diary,
Today, I am thankful for what I have right now, which is weird because I thought the old me in 2024 couldn't make it in 2025 to be alive. I had been through a lot last year, taken for granted, met new people, new experiences struggles in life, being in love, disappointments, trust someone again, being betrayed, being so drunk in 3 months, crying out loud, laughing out loud, new history about my achievements, my 1st time out of the country, dated a foreigner, being flirted with a foreigner, new crushes, depression, new friends and forgave someone.
That's what happened last year, so I am proud of myself because all the pain that I went through a lot last year, I still made it shine like a mirrorball. Even though it's shattered into pieces, it keeps shining and stunning. After my internship in Thailand for 6 months, I deactivated all of my social media accounts when I arrived here in the Philippines. I isolated myself because the pain was still there. However, in 3 months isolation of myself, I have found my passion about cooking, baking, reconnecting with family, reconnecting with nature also and every 4 a.m walking and running, forgiving myself more that I wished I loved myself back then, so that all the pain that I had been through will not be experienced by it. But without it, I wouldn't be growing. Taylor Swift once said, If you never bleed, you never gonna grow. And it felt so hard, she was right. If I don't experience the pain, I will never gonna grow and make things right.
All of the regrets that I wish I could undo, I can finally accept the fact and do not look back at my past because it's already happened. I will focus more on my PRESENT. How the things can I make things right from now on. In 2 months, I will be finally graduating and a degree holder. God is truly good all the time and never leaves me behind. Everything has a reason, and he will put you on the lowest so that you'll become a better one.
Long story short, I survived :)