Dear Diary, Ive been wondering, what was his reason?
Did he like me? Probably not, he has a girlfriend i think
He just wanted to try? Probably, im not even that pretty
He wanted to make me feel bad? I dont know but he did
Why does he continues like nothing happened? I found out one of my friends like, was that why? to leave me open for that friend i dont even like? He can toss me out just like that? He can leave me left alone just like that? I wonder if he cared, if he cares right now. He wasnt on drugs to be able to forget it, and it happened sometimes, you cant forget sstuff like that right? I cant. Maybe he can. But i cant.
I keep talking to him just because maybe, just maybe he'll do it again, i dont think i will even feel happy, maybe just nice for a moment until he starts. Just a hug would be nice, or a "Im sorry" or "Im gonna explain to you why".
Im just listening to music right now, i watched a gameplay of "Medical Trial", pretty nice game. The art is really cute and the characters too. I feel sick thinking i would like Lee, my mind is too rotten, maybe my mind is desperate for affection even the most sick one.
I went to school, my politics teacher is weird but his long monologues are interesting, maybe he thinks i dont lisen to him because im doodling but i just concentrate better that way than just looking in peoples faces.
I feel disgusting looking in the mirror, im so ugly, it was pretty cold today but i didnt use my jacket cause i look even fatter. Even when i dont eat well for a long time im still fat, i dont wanna end up like my mother.