Dear Diary,
"YOLO - you only live once".
Hi, it's about 30th Jan and 31st Jan.
30th Jan - he was still in that mode...that I don't want to lose you but I don't know about my feelings. I asked him to order something for me, something sweet to eat. I got me some ice creams.
Same thing continued...it was his birthday eve, I sent him cake and flowers...12am... birthday done...I had a conversation with someone else on marriage context...and the tradegy happend when the other person likes me on the first conversation only.
I told him SS about this also..
31st Jan - It was his birthday, somewhere I also feel that I spoiled his birthday by putting in a place where he feel pressurized but what can I do...I really need answers and I need to figure out things for me...coz it is also disturbing me affecting my whole life, affecting every aspect of my life...
I want some stability in my life...I want to marry and settle down with someone so that atleast I have peace at an aspect of my life so that I can keep hustling to make life better, hustle to meet other things I desire for... and I have a person to go to... when I am low...
I talked to Arihant also as I needed some serious sort of advice on the current scenario...I will write about these things on another note...
Bye for now.