Dear Diary, I can't bear with this shit anymore, I wanna kill myself so bad, I wanna kill him REALLY bad.
Like here it's fucking 5:07 am and I'm crying like the stupid retard I am. Why the fuck has he been so distant, I feel like he hates me, I think the doesn't want to hang out anymore, I don't think I did something but I'm kinda worried. I feel bad wishing his death, I feel bad wanting to kill him, I don't know what he is going thru but GOD FUCKING DAMMIT I WANNA KILL MYSELF SO BAD. No Tony because of him no, I need his attention because of something else, something I don't really know if I should tell here but I don't f7cking know I'm just gonna go to sleep now idk