Dear Diary,
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I am so frustrated.
Achanak se itta pressure shaadi krane ka bas chale ki ho kara de....papa ko dekh dekh k irritation hota hai...din bhar lage rehte hain kisi random insaan se baat krne me...papa toh the ho... Bhai bhi lag gaya hai ab...aisa lag raha hai next year me market me meri selling price zero ho jayegi...
I am so done with this...aur ek bhi ladka pasand nai hai meko
Aur first of all shaadi krne k liye mera koi mann nai hai
11:30 PM Mujhe bahut jada stress ho raha hai...and I don't want ki ye anxiety me badal jaye... sometimes I just hate my life...like right now...coz I feel helpless... mummy papa bhi ja hi nai rahe wapas...they are toxic...khas kar ki papa...and mere andar bhi wahi genes pas on hue hain...I just want to go somewhere...no one understands my mental state...what I feel, what I think, they just overreact. That's why I don't say anything. And I also don't know what I want in myself in my life...but I know that I don't want any person in my life... I don't want anyone...i feel happy with myself... I want to live alone stress-free. I hate marriage...i hate those boys who keeps poking...I know they are desperate...I Just want to disappear or I want everyone around me to disappear. I hate people... sometimes I feel I should go and get converted into a monk or whatever the female version is known as.
I wish I could have been a person who could believe in marriage or fall in love with someone or find someone easily or atleast I could have known what do I want from my life.