Dear Diary, Hello hello. I'm at mr crows house we are just settling in and getting high. The last time we spoke he got angry at me for taking the bag of meth as he forgot he gave to me. He rang me up and then hung up on me whilst I was sitting in the Woolworths carpark in my mum's car about to hop out when I said yes I took it but only because you said so. But a few days later he text me saying heyyy again. So here I am in his bed under his dooner smoking his drugs wanting one of mr crows kisses. Hopefully it's a soft kiss because I just bit the middle of my bottom lip. I might ask him something as well that has been playing circles in my mind; if he is having sex with any other girls.. and if he is well...... I um have never been in a situation like that before I've always been the only girl at the time. Like I know we aren't actually dating so if he did do it with other girls it's not cheating and he wouldn't feel guilty But I'm not doing it with boys because I'm already doing it with mr. One boy is enough. Like sleeping around isn't my thing. I guess i would feel hurt well only because I thought the chemistry of feelings that we end up having when were together would be satisfying enough to stick with. Like I would come over in a heartbeat if he simply wanted me. I wouldn't also do it with anyone other than mr crow anyways right so early on obviously because I don't know if it could turn into something and that just ruins it adding other people it makes it not special. And if he says that there isn't anyone else I would be so happy.