January 18, 2024

You're great 💛 the notifications are messed up lately i noticed too, its to terrible, i missed a couple of lovely comments because of this issue, hopefully it gets fixed soon! Man... the number of times ive found myself in a group of cool people i wanna be friends with and instead of being myself i just go mute... Its so frustrating, i completely get it. At one point im convinced we'll be able to be exactly who we want. We're all giant paradoxes, its confusing and it makes it so hard to grasp exactly who you are, especially when every part pf society wants to put you in a box. Are you rational or emotional? Lots of people are both! Are you introverted or extroverted? It can depend on the situation ! Ok im rambling again... All of this to say once again, i get you, and if it is worth something, i will keep letting you know i care :)

Why the notifications in this app are so bad? If I haven't come here to edit this entry, I probably would never have seen your comment — which would have been horribly sad, because this was lovely to read. I think crying and laughing at the same time is very high on my scale-bar of insanity, together with the awkward and frustrating feeling of going to a place and being too shy and self-conscious to want to draw attention to myself and at the same time wanting to have an actual conversation with the people that are there. Or going to a party and wanting to dance and also not wanting to dance because of the other people that might see me. Nothing makes me question my mental stability more than the painful paradox between what I am and what I wish I could to be. Thank you for checking on me and, trust me, it's worth a great fucking deal. Sending you well and warm wishes. <3

Have you ever laughed and cried hysterically at the same time? its a special type of "am i going insane" kind of situation haha i hope you're okay, for what its worth im rooting for you 💛