to be honest, the empty feeling is still right here. It feels as if it is on its way to fade away but it keeps turning back again and again.
Tomorrow i will have psychology exam and i am kinda prepared but kinda not. I cant focus on my studies. The day after tomorrow i will have geography exam and the day after that, i have to go to visit a university. the way will take me around 3 hours and i'm afraid i'm gonna take the wrong train, since i will go there by myself.
I am afraid of the exams. I dont want to fail. I dont want my parents be disappointed since this year is important for my graduation because every single grade i get since this school year, will count into my final graduation grade.
my thoughts are the whole time somewhere else. i cannot sleep well and my body is hurting af.
i want to get out of this all. the pressure is too big. not only because of school but also because of the command to be perfect.
i cant be perfect but so many people expect from me to be so.
i am afraid of them.
i am so afraid.