August 15, 2023 #438

Dear Diary, she said doesn’t want to see me “this time”. Hmm…  I won’t see her anymore in my life… I feel so… 

well I had my period mental waves but I think I managed to write very simply. 

She could have ignored my message. But she didn’t. I should appreciate that. Now it’s clear so that I can move on, right? But…how?

Bye bye, I had a very fun time with you in my university life. Thank you for the good memory. I wish I could know why we ended up like this. And I am sorry if being with me wasn’t fun to you. 

I am still not sure how to feel about this.

I am just being sad about this friendship breakup. 

I still have a friend overseas. But I feel very ashamed to tell him that I don’t really have other friends. It’s like I have a huge personal problem and I kinda believe that.

He sounds like he has many friends and friends groups. 

Well fortunately I still have a friend from old time I can text with. I will send her text today. I really really appreciate her to give me a message last year after a years…

She’s literally the only person who sent me a message!

I know my diary looks very creepy these days🥺

This makes me realized that I also want to interact with people…

I thought I have too many things I shouldn’t tell others. And I gradually confused how much I can tell to my friends. Then I closed my heart while I really want to talk. I still don’t know how much is okay to share.