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Dear Diary,
It was hard to decide the title of this note. I don't know what to call this night. Its one more night, when i wont be able to sleep. I dont know how i can explain to you in a note. The weight of the event is too high for just a note.
Yet, there is no other place, i would rather go to right now, to tell everything.
Life!!!
When she told she wanted to say something to me, On the way to her home, going on bike, i was telling myself, that this time, no matter how she tries to breakup, i wont be upset. I'll be happy with whatever makes her happy. But i decided i'll tell her first, what i wanted to tell her and could not.
That the last few weeks have been sooo beautiful, that how pretty she looked today, the lehenga, her flying hairs, her smile, her Jhumke, that she was prettiest of all. So i said to her. And that, i am sooo thankful to Ankita, She has been an Angel.
This dance practice, it was loveliest thing.
So when she proposed, i didn't know if it was real or not (Am i still dreaming ?). I couldn't believe it. I mean, i dont know if i can really tell you how big this is, how can i tell you about countless nights and countless days of me thinking about it, just the thought of living my life with her is enough to turn my day around, And when she asked me this, i felt like, that's all. I am done with life now. Isn't that all i wanted from life.
Once again life has surprised me, surprised me Big!
At first, i was a little scared of being too happy, last time life surprised me, when i almost proposed someone and she got engaged with someone else the very next day.
By now, i know for sure that life has tricks up it's sleeves. I mean, i do understand difference between a somewhat known thing coming as surprise and something totally out of blue surprise. This is totally out of blue surprise, i always believed and wished for this, but i thought, if it ever happens, it'll be like someday i'll ask her and she'll say yes.
And i know, for sure, life has many more surprises yet. Good & Bad both. I have to cherish the good ones and handle the bad ones with grace too.
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Now, there are few more things, i have to do right.
My heart is too heavy to write about it.
I have loved Jyoti and Aisha and i know that she loves me too...
I don't think i can write it.
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On the other hand, when she proposed, she said, she is not there yet, she doesn't have the same feelings for me yet...
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Life won't be same again now.