Dear Diary, When i went home from school, I cried. I realized that I’m lonely because of my horrible lack of social skills and lots of stuff that i avoid so that consequences won’t happen.
This started last night and I thought I was just having pms but now I don’t think so. I’m just so lonely and I know I have a part in this. But, i’m just so set on my ways it’s horrible
Then I thought of you. It doesn’t make much of a difference writing it down, but it’s something to do.
School was fine, i have classmates that i could talk to and they are kind.
I think what would be good for me are deeper bonds, but where do i find that, how do i do that, i’m such a mess.
Even at school when we were cheering and laughing, there are moments when i felt like crying right there.
I feel like it’s happening again, but I don’t think i’ll stop this time.
This is bearable, back then, that was not.
I do horrible things I’m not that good of a human , does that mean i deserve this ? even if i do, I don’t want it
I’m in pain, that’s all i know