What to write?
How am I right now? Meh. Calm, dancing around the void. Just trying to be head off. I don't event want to write down why. What else can I talk about? What can I write right now that won't make me sad? I don't want to talk about the bad stuff. I don't want to focus on it right now. So what's the good stuff? Immediate, right off the top of the head?
I'm at coffee and I am feeling myself right now. I've been playing Elden Ring again lately which gives me something to do. I guess it's just those two things right now? I don't know. I want to write. I don't know what to say. Maybe I'll try again in a bit.
I just need to stay present. That's it. That's the key. Stay present. I'm looking forward to going home after the reset that coffee provides, walking luna, playing Elden Ring, and (hopefully) watching Super as I scroll through TikTok on the couch with the girls. That would be a great night. That's all that matters. I am okay. I am happy.