Dear Diary, I stood up for myself. I got yelled at by dad just because he was stressed. This happens sometimes and I had thought I should not have to care about. Because that is not my business. But it’s not really okay because it’s a trigger for me. When it happens, my mind immediately goes back at the point where I was in the high school toilet room. That historic teacher yelling at me. Her mother was not well so she was upsetting all the time. Human express their emotions whenever it is triggered by someone and they secretly take it as a good excuse. I am not a good excuse for nobody, especially for my dad or teacher.
So I thought it’s unfair for myself to be yelled at like that. I’ve educated myself that negative emotions especially such as anger should be separated from what I let go from my mouth. I don’t know how but it is since my kindergarten grade. So I still confused or struggle when it comes when I really need to stand up for myself. And this time was to my dad. He easily loses his temper because he works. But I know he is a good dad so I could do that.
But I am still upsetting 😨