September 23, 2022 #280

Dear Diary, I had birthday depression yesterday. It was kinda severe at night. Because my dad mentioned about my future. I couldn’t fall asleep easily. I was just venting my sad and stupid thoughts out. I didn’t have nightmares last night though. I considered of “disappearing” which isn’t possible. Morning doesn’t feel friendly at all. But I couldn’t have time to do morning pages. 

But hmm after I left home and took train somehow, it’s okay now.