Dear Diary, so on the day before the Ponyo thing Spike wrote this into the Ghibli group:
sorry for not answering! I've been quite ill these past weeks, sadly, so I missed the ghibli screenings entirely. but i still hope that you have an amazing time if you're going tonight or this weekend!! I already heard from some of you who went, and it sounded like a wonderful experience to get to see these films on the big screen🥹💕
Like I said I already didnt plan to go anyway since nobody responded. But on too of that I had gotten an ear infection because of the cream I was using. It was really painful. So I wrote this:
Get well soon! I actually can't go either cause I have an ear infection 🙃
Knight who is also in the group almost immediately reacted with 😥.
Some other people responded saying get well soon and one guy was also sick.
Spike one day later reacted to my message with 😣 and also reacted to some of the other messages. Then she quoted my message and said:
and i hope you get well soon as well and that it's not too bad 🥺
I responded pretty soon by reacting with 🙏 to her message and saying:
Thanks 😊 The last days were pretty painful, but I think its slowly getting better
I hope everyone is having or will have a very Ghibli like summer! 🌳✨(Nausicaä, Princess Mononoke and Grave of the Fireflies maybe excluded)
Then Knight asked if anyone was going to a firework show that was that sunday. A maybe response from somebody is the lasz message in the group.
When I was feeling better I went to see Nope with Knight and some people she knew. It was two guys and one girl, no idea where she knew them from but they were nice.
That was 4 days later. And while I saw the movie Spike reacted to my messages from 4 days ago. 😥 to the first one, 🌱 to the second. 🌱 must be one of her favorites because she uses it behind her name too.
So that was pretty much all that was happening. It was pretty cool when she reacted to the messages that made me happy. But I didnt know how to respond to that. Also reacting to something from her would be weird.
Thats where that stands. All in all I've been pretty lost these past few weeks. I feel like I'm wasting my time but I also cant do amything to change that. I cant just find a girlfriend and I dont feel like there are any activities that are fun to do alone. But if you dont go to activities you also cant get to know anyone. It sucks
Also I wonder what that illness was that she had. Was it sth. psychological or bodily. I really hope its better now.
I've remade my translated HxH Greed Island cards in better quality. Maybe I can print them for real this time. It's pretty expensive though. Also I'm procrastimating on starting my master thesis.
Also I've been watching Daria again. Its one of my favorite cartoons for sure. She is a lot like me. I wish I could return to that time.