July 24, 2022

Dear Diary,

So my nerves are perfectly fine and not damaged yet but still my left hand is constantly numb.... I hope it heals soon. It is scary to me. I also am getting anxious regarding my career. 

There is only 1 superstition I believe in, and that is in evil eye. So, I feel it's my cousin's evil eye which caused this nerve issue. Ever since she got to know I am getting married, she was so jealous, she also left family group. She cried and made a scene when we shared the good news. And everyone cared about her and became upset rather than showing any happiness. I also cried like anything because of how everyone acted like someone died. So, she is 3 months elder to me and was looking for a groom since a long time through matrimonial sites. Still no luck. How is it my fault though. She just wanted to be the first one to get married. Apart from that I feel the same about another cousin of mine. I guess their whole family is like that. Actually throughout our life they wanted to look down upon us. But my brother got selected in world top 15 college with full scholarship abroad and then I am getting married. 2 such news at the same time was not something they could handle well. 

My father's side was actually pretty happy and everyone showed excitement and happiness unlike my mother's side with whom I grew up. I used to prefer my mother's side of relatives, but now I don't like them at all. I have only forgiven my mom's younger brother's family as of now because his wife showed excitement and was cheerful. 

They never even asked anything about him to mom, that's how much jealous they were. 

Regards,

Anne

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