Dear Diary, sometimes anxiety gnaws at my stomach and i feel nauseous, but i don’t really know the reason. i hadn’t had any anxiety inducing thoughts, nor am i in a stressful situation. it just appears out of the blue. i have a theory that it’s my body realizing i’m drifting away from everyone. maybe it’s my body realizing that i’m being forgotten. i don’t know that the idea really makes sense, i don’t know if a body could realize anything, because in my brain i’ve already accepted it. or maybe i’m feigning indifference, i couldn’t tell you if i cared or not. i know sometimes i have thoughts that contradict my nature. sometimes i imagine making new friends but when i put more thought into it i despise the idea of having people around me. sometimes i think about romance, and other times the concept of intimacy makes me sick to my stomach. i confuse myself more than anyone else.
i would type more but i’m tired. i’ll be back to tell you how i feel later.