Dear Diary, To be honest I hope you would text me more so I don't have to double text you for you to respond. I know I can be a little much and I always have something going on in my life but its not my fault. I cant blame a certain person idk if I should blame myself... I wish I had a boring family (normal) as you say family. So I can come to you as a women more than a young lady as you say. I don't know if I like you or the idea of you but I know that you only care so much before I eventually leave. You told me that you'll always care for her and idk why I was even surprised I should know by now that its always the ex. I'll never be that girl you know the ones that they talk about so kindly, that girl they stare off to the distance to thinking of her beauty... Everything melts away for that moment and you see that look of love in their eyes that breaks you a little inside. I have to say looking or knowing the girl they talk about hurts, it makes you wonder if they were to meet again that if he'll pick her but then again you know that answer. I do wish I was that girl they daydream about though, the one he daydreams about.