Dear diary, is it alright to say I feel full. My heart is heavy. I prayed to get closer and I feel his presence. I’m understanding the pattern now the more I read the powerful testaments from old and new I feel his spiritual presence of approval. Don’t tell anyone but sometimes I reach out and wrap my arms around the air illustrating the hug I want to give to him. The ease of my mental chaos I hold steadfast to the hope he gives me. Tonite at work my anxiety had me jumping my hand quivered my head jerked but I thought “ I’m scared” as I embarked on an outcall to customers about services for the very first time. I’m a incoming call type person not a an outgoing. But I heard :
O, ye of little faith
Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
I’m not alone. I’m not going through trails and test by myself.
O lord I’m grateful I’m inviting you in my heart My mind I need you to direct my path. I’m eager to be close. Needing to form a bond that’s forever growing stronger. I’m yearning for spiritual maturity to be touched deeply lord I want to be identified as a member of your body. In Jesus name amen