Dear Diary, It All boils down to Consumption. What am I consuming. From food, entertainment, education etc. I’m going over these things as I write, holy spirt guide me. From the aspect of food it’s my biggest compromise you can literally break me with it . After having my daughter sugar took control and have had an hold on me. Food is my default especially after having more monetary resources and the ability to download apps such as Ubereats, Grubhub, DoorDash. That’s when I went into a downward spiral. $30 here $20 there I was averaging $600 on fast food alone in a month that could have went into savings I regret it. In the beginning of the Pandemic I found myself stuffing fast food down my throat twice a day. I couldn’t hide my binge eating disorder anymore with obsessive weight training and cardio because the gym was closed to visitors. I racked up 80 lbs of fat since March of last year how pathetic and out of control I am. I need a break through!! This lifestyle diet change is my start to recovery. I was going to venture into all forms of my deadly consumption but I rather insert later.
I lord God I’m a overeater. I take part in gluttony so much so my temple has become ruin with excessive fat. My consumption has introduced laziness and tiredness i didn’t sign up for. My Faith cannot be truly given unto you without work. Father I’m working on it my will is in flesh so I’m leaning on my spiritual strength to carry me through.in Jesus name amen