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Today was my first time seeing and touching a penis in person and I hated every second of it. I wish I would’ve gotten up and walked away. I said no but he just kept pushing and I didn’t want to be mean and he kept saying to “help him” get rid of his boner and I just went along with it cause I felt bad and he kept grabbing my hand so I was worried what he would do if I just got up and walked away. Mostly because he already forced my best friend to give him a blowjob. He said he was sorry and that he had changed :( and that it wasn’t gonna happen again. I didn’t trust his word but my bff said she solved it out with him and he apologized so I thought if I hanged out with him alone nothing bad would happen. I was a complete idiot and I wish I would’ve just stayed home today. I had the chance to stay home but I wanted to go to school today.

Thankfully I’m still a virgin, but I’m still very upset that my first seeing a penis wasn’t with someone special and in a private place (It happened at the back of the library and people kept going and coming) 

The hardest part out of all of this is that I want to tell my mom but I don’t know how to tell her, I know she won’t be mad but I just don’t know. They should really teach kids how to open up to their parents about serious topics such like this one.
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Mrs. Brightside✓
Dec 14, 2021 · 48 views

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A Trilion ThoughtsDec 15, 2021

Oh dear. I am so so sorry that this happened to you and that you and your best friend have been through those awful experiences. It makes me so angry. I can’t imagine the range of emotions you’ve been feeling. I agree with Anne. Please stay away from him. I encourage you to talk to your mum. I know you don’t know how to tell her. How about starting with: “Mum, there’s something important that I want to talk to you about…I’m scared and I don’t know where to start, but I need your help. I really want to open up to you and it’s important that we have this conversation” Then tell her what’s been going on. It’s going to be much tougher going through it alone. Also check out exoduscry on Instagram. Their mission is to end trafficking and sexual exploitation. They have released a documentary called “Raised on Porn” which “exposes the ways pornography has become the new sex education for children and unpacks the dangerous lifelong implications of this global phenomenon.” You can find the link in their bio. Before watching the documentary, I knew that porn was damaging, but I had no idea of the extent - especially since porn has become so much more violent and promotes the idea that even when girls say NO, they secretly mean “yes”. I have been off this platform for some time and decided to log back in today. I’m glad I did, so that I could read your post and reach out to you. I wish there was more I could do.

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AnneDec 14, 2021

Please stay away from that guy. Don't go out with him alone again

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