October 26, 2021

 

Dear Diary,


I often let my curiousity get the best of me regardless of my moral values.


Somethings I can ignore but certain things like my relationship insecurities I simply struggle to keep my nose out of. I don't know if it's always wrong for me to though, do I not have the right to know everything that's going on between me and a person even if I had to read their conversations with other people?


Today after school she left her Instagram logged into my phone, I saw and took note of it before we even left class. I didn't fight my curious thoughts because I'd lose anyways.


So after I walked to my car, I checked if she texted me first, then I went into snooping and again all I found just like in the past was disappointing texts. I don't know why I put myself through the pain to do so, I guess that's just another burden that comes along with having a curiousity level that high. 


I just wanted to cry but what good does it do now to cry when I find more evidence that I was never and still not the only one when she isn't even mine anymore.


Hopefully I'll eventually learn my lesson because every single time I read what I shouldn't I find something. 


I guess it's not my business anymore anyways so I shouldn't be snooping regardless. 


I logged out so I don't go back to the texts. I've seen enough. 

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