October 25, 2021

Dear Diary,

I have been stuck. I feel like I am never going to get over it. I feel like my bf is going to forever be stuck on his ex, but I feel stuck in the relationship because we have a house that I bought in my name because I planned for us to be in this together and I can’t afford the house on my own. I want to break up with him but he’s also a great step dad to my kids and is basically their dad. He’s been in their lives for so long now…. If we broke up and he moved out it would be hard because I would have to pick up a second job and I wouldn’t be able to have my kids with me full time anymore and I’ve worked so hard to have that. I’m just so lost and so confused. I hate feeling like I’m not the one when I love him so much. That sounds so pitiful, but the thing is…. He’s great to me in all aspects aside from the whole ex gf thing.. but I’m tired of feeling like I’m the tagalong between them two. I want to find better and I know I can find better for myself, but can I find better for my kids?