Dear Diary,
Everyday is a new day for me . A new day to experience new things, new goals, new foods . When I was in the darkness I didn't want anything or anyone . Yes it sucks to be lonely but it also sucks to be unhappy. I needed out of our toxic marriage . I prayed many nights that things would get better but that never came . But its ok now, in a way I'm glad it didn't ! One person can only experience so much heartache and I had enough. I was ready to walk away and find myself. Melissa has been under construction for the last three years . But right now I can finally say its getting better. I hope one day maybe I find someone to truly love me that way I loved you but right now I'm ok if that don't happen. Its ok to be single . When you tell your side of the story everyone will see who was lying and who wasn't.... So for whichever girl is by your side everyone will see it's been you all along . We both know you cant be alone. I have the balls to be alone in this cruel world. I wake up alone and go to sleep alone. But my skies aren't so dark anymore . I want to live and breathe each new day. I want to push myself to try harder each day and gain my strength. So far so good. Yes I may have health issues but all in due time and if those issues happen to take me out then that's ok too. I will know I died fighting for me ! I choose me, I'm the one i should love !! So I Love me......................