After all the relationships I've been through, and having all of them fail the same way was starting to make me think I could never really be happy.
I finally found her though, happiness came my way and damn was she amazing. Something more than I've ever felt before. I never thought I could or would feel this way. After so many failed relationships, all failing because the same exact reason, it made me feel like I was going about finding happiness the wrong way or I was doing something consistently wrong.
I didn't know how else to look though.
However persistence resulted in success it would seem at this point.
All I know is that she's my only shot at happiness. If I screw up and she leaves me, I'll never recover, I'll never find anyone like her and will regret the decision that pushed her away from me for the rest of my life.
She's everything to me, my joy, pain, motivation, my heart, she's my reason to live and without her I'll shatter back into the pieces she built me back up from.