Dear Diary,
I spent hours tonight crying after I ride in those posts and talking about all the things that happened. My sentencing hearing is going to be so scared. I know I got a sweet deal but for me even a month behind bars is enough to make my breath go short. All those details they will go over. Kara and her mom on the stand talking about the suffering and fear they have endured. Thry will talk about the nightmares I gave that little girl. How can they give me less than the max 10 months. I can't even imagine what that will be like to experience that. Well I'll be writing about it if it does happen I just wish so bad that I didn't have to do this just don't feel like I deserve how much time stupid taste it storybook. That's really not why periods because I was planning on finding that little girl putting my fingers inside of her. Turns me on to think about it that's what's so awful about it. I don't even like her anymore
Because it cannot seem like I'm making a joke but I'm not. Have a crush on her little sister now.. she's not even fourteen yet stop thinking about how cool it would be to have a relationship with her. Listen to me I'm going exactly where I should be Paradigm going exactly where I belong I just wish I got to finger her I want a mile if someone worth it. What lessons faster I have to learn lowest form of life about to be put into the worst place you can go designed for the lowest forms of life like me. This is a rough part of the jail because of the people that like me. My people. I just need to go cry more I hate my life right now. Still just doesn't seem fair. If somebody has any kind of connections or anything please try to get me out of this. I don't know if I can do this I didn't even get to put my hands on her. Didn't even have if it I know this was going to happen to work out a lot harder. The words are the reason why people like me taken and made an example out of in public.. Villains nasty children abusers apparently I'm sorry for what I am.. I just hate that I have to go to jail like this. I hate it I want to change it so bad.