Dear Diary,
One thing I realised today, I am not in depression anymore. I think I have not been in so much peace in last 3 years, as I am now. I have great friends in life, specially S, thanks to lockdown we became so good friends. We both were stuck in Mumbai for a few months and no one was there. So I used to cook dinner for both of us.
I had booked my flight back home when he came back to Mumbai for some office work , but my flight got cancelled as govt banned the flights. So for around 1.5 months we spend a lot of time together after office hours, he was my neighbor and colleague. I cooked the vegetables and we used to make roti together. And after that listen to songs, gossip or watch Netflix.
Now that I think of it, those 1.5 months were also really peaceful. I didn't make any move at that time because I had AM in my mind. Even though I was not in relationship, I felt it would be wrong. And lastly, I was not in love or something, so there was not enough reason. .
Anyways, after I returned we still kept talking and we are kinda like best friends now. Then there is SM, he is also a great friend of mine. I realised I don't need love in life after all. I had good friends but I wanted love. And never did I get happiness in the long run whenever love was involved.
There is this guy V, he told me he likes me yesterday, I said I like him too. But I am not giving him importance much. I don't know if I can trust him. I will not be exclusive for anyone untill we are both committed. Giving someone more importance than they deserve is what made me depressed in the last few months. And it's not that I m going to date 2 people or something, I still am looking for the rishtas.