Dear Diary,was this thing supposd to be a daily thing. Haha. Well I already messed up. speaking of messing up, sometimes I wish I wasn't suck a fuck up. Sometimes I wish I could have the life you see in movies. Sometimes I wish you could have the love you see in movies. But I can't because life isn't a movie. Or a love story. Or a song. Life is nothing like that. Life is just life. Sometimes it feels like I'm slipping away. Being forgotten slowly. That feeling happens a lot. I mostly just listen to music to numb the pain, like a drug. And lay on my bed and stare at the ceiling. And slip away. Just like a drug. And sometimes when I slip away like that. I don't wanna come back to reality. Sometimes it feels better just to wither away. To slip away into the universe. People are like flowers, they all wither away at some point.