October 16, 2020

 

Dear Diary,


My lip and neck still hurt but it is getting better.
I think I overdid it on the vicodin. I am still so tired. I will probably sleep a little more here soon. I so badly want more though. It is so relaxing!
I had a dream last night about Ryan. It was similar to Halloween but like, better in the sense that he wasn't drunk. I want to text him. I am surprised he hasn't tried to get a hold of me. That is typical him though, one minute he won't stop leaving me alone and then the next he completely forgets I exist.
A friend had asked me last night if it was maybe possible to go back to Kemper's place. I don't see why I should even if I could. I don't know why he wants me around. He doesn't seem to want much more than to just have a roommate. I can't even be a decent roommate either, I would never be able to pay half the rent and all the other stuff. So...why?! I don't understand his motive for wanting me around. If he wants some companionship, he could get a dog. They are loyal and friendly, most of the time. haha
Okay seriously, I am damn tired and I have someone meeting me later.
When will I be able to get a real job?! Most men are animals and they like to hit. I just get tired of it.
When I turn 18, I am going to get a license, copy of my birth certificate, social security card, and get a real job. I don't want to do this forever.

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