Dear Diary,
Sometimes I think my life is because of my faults.
I think I am defective.
All I know is that I would do anything to see or talk to Ryan right now.
I feel bad that I can't even talk to my friends about what is going on or what I am feeling.
I hate how I am on my own. I wish life would just change for me. That is probably something that I need to do and not something you can just wish for.
I am hitching a ride with someone else right now. I honestly don't care where he is going. I just want to be someplace new.
Maybe the next place will be a fresh start, maybe I will be able to put all of this behind me... i hope