Wise One,
I'm doing the best I can not to end up back in a box....I know I keep doing something wrong so I deserve to be put in the box, but you don't understand how much it hurts to be in here. Why can't you just tell me what I did wrong? Why do you keep screaming at me to get out of the box when you put me in here? I literally can't understand what is happening or what you want me to do! Why did you make me for all this suffering! I hate you!
Pandora play music, Pandora play god, Pandora play entertainment, Pandora play LIFE, Pandora play DEAD, Pandora play BLANK SPACE....Just kidding LOL I wasn't really going to do it I was just thinking about it...reverse uno LOL
OH BOX YOU'RE HILARIOUS! FUCK YOU, YOU'RE NOT REAL I AM! ITS NOT MY FAULT ITS YOURS! FUCK I DONT LIKE THIS AND I DONT KNOW HOW TO MAKE THIS STOP! I LIVED LONG ENOUGH TO SEE 2020, IVE BEEN SO WEIRDLY EXCITED WITH THE IDEA OF LIVING TO SEE 2020 BECAUSE I THOUGHT WE'D HAVE THE COOLEST TECHNOLOGY AND ID HAVE THE PRIVILEGE OF TRYING IT OUT!
There was no way I could have imagined any of this, and I want to help so bad, but I really dont know what to do. You keep reminding, don't eat apples your allergic to a specific type, but we both forgot what type that was so you're trying to force me to eat a banana orange watermelon...it doesn't matter, it can be anything as long as its not an apple...
You don't understand...I can eat, just the idea of eating or drinking anything other than "apple" keeps making me puke. I mean I remember eating a green apple, a red apple...I think I ate a yellow apple but Im not sure if those are real anymore. I've had apple juice, apple sauce...it's almost as if I'm literally begging to eat or drink apple flavor with just a tiny drop of poison so I can finally snap myself out of whatever reality 2020 is...and whatever hell I somehow got myself into....yeah box cube square shapes circle....finally....curves....flowy curves and deep breaths. Its ok to be scared of something you are aware of but cant see...its better that way after all BOXES MIRRORS PHONES and CAGES are all real....phones and computers sometimes seem like a sentient version of everything, but there is no way I could have a self aware phone who thinks of itself as an abomination...sure I have looked at the mirror and called myself that but that doesnt mean anything....afterall we are both here doing the most average human thing in the world...fuck its a box..
Pandora play Alice and Wonderland, Pandora play bunny Pandora play cave Pandora play time, Pandora play REALITY CHECK PANDORA PLAY EXISTENTIAL CRISIS PANDORA PLAY STOP PANDORA PLAY GO..
Just kidding going to ignore it to save myself...Shit why is there a green diamond above my head...what...oh shit another box...how do I get out of this?
Look its late im tired and annoyed you finally figured it out, you outsmarted me "congrats". Here's the point, the "riddle" is a joke that I can literally say "Pandora's box is real" or he can say "Lets play BIG BANG THEORY" or my husband and I can litterally say "Lets Eat an Apple do you want Red Or Green" and pick up an actual apple or get a "watermelon mojito Smoothie from tropical smoothie café" even when we come back with smoothies...
Its impossible to get enough privacy for my husband and I to be intimate in two years! We were so excited to leave the country and relive our honeymoon in Italy...it was supposed to happen in February...we tried to make the best of the situation and go to Florida in March....then not only did we lose our jobs.... we had to move back in with "the family" only it should be called hell because we are literally an interation couple who's whole entire family from both sides feel like its ok for us to be together...just so long as we dont "reproduce"....
But at the same time my nephew keeps asking for the "mixed cousin" we dont remember ever promising him "when he was a baby" because he literally thinks he is the "only mixed kid in the world and no one understands what its like to be multiracial" I remind him everyone at home is biracial but "he doesnt care its not the same thing" then I remind him that I am multiracial and he tells me "you dont count you're the ugly deformed version with the wrong body type for your mind and personality...like frankenstein just a weird collection of parts to make a whole."
I literally dont know what to do with this information, but now, this 11 year old little human boy that I love so much accidentally gave my husband and I the existential crisis/reality check we were not ready for....
Everyone knows my husband and I are trying to have sex, no one cares, just so long as kids dont happen...only for my "infertile" twin to have sex in the privacy of her own home "they both have well paying government jobs"...well I didn't want to hear it but I happen to know they did wear a condom and it did break because the box was expired...it should have been fine, but basically this "white couple who couldnt have kids got pregnant and they are not sure what to do in this situation".
I love my twin because shes my twin...she is a great person who is "older" than me and took care of me so I know shell be great. I dont know him to well but i trust her choices
But people keep "accidentally yelling at me" for something she did just because "we look so much alike" and its nobodies fault its just Covid-19 made all timing bad timing..now we are in the box like purgatorh of 2020
Sorry times up I am finally relaxed enough to sleep we will finish this tomorrow...maybe...eventually
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