May 28, 2020

Darling ghost, it was like a lil bit of stars, falling like there is no today. I would whisper a wish while the clock said 11:11. At that time, I, for the first time, took matters into my own hand. But then again my failure of my past changed the course of my future. That was my biggest failure according to me.  

According to my world, my biggest failure was my grades. The fact that my grades were dropping didn't mind me. No, they never mattered to me. I just read what I liked. But at that time, when my grades were failing me, no one. No one i knew said, "it's okay to fail. It's okay to lose sometime." No one have said it. Not even now. The book, internet, and movies said it but they are nothing compared to the words from someone who knows you. They just said, "what is wrong with you?" "Seriously, what are you doing?" Those words dragged me deeper. My grades didnt amaze anyone anymore...Regret: the most useless emotion.

I am better off without these memories. Or else I will learn to hate the one I love. 

Now I am here. I love my course. I like what I am studying. Struggling but not as worst as before.

Therefore, my ghost, I offer this regret to you. Please carry it. I shall never speak of this matter again.

Your fallen angel.