Leaena's Dear Diary

Index
May 31, 2025
You take your brush and paint me in your image.  You use the vibrant indigo with a hint of yellow. You want to make a flower out of my crooked head you said.You took my chin on your warm blooded hands. Gripped it to pull my bare face closer to you. Y
May 31
May 27, 2025
I always knew I was hungry for warmth. But I did not know I would burn others for that ever lost heat. I would like to apologize for burning your woods. Let you burn alone just for the warmth to pour from your slender hand. I have been cold for too l
May 27
May 20, 2025
I like the kind of music I can breathe in. The kind that feels inhaling. The ones that leave you out of breath. But then I love the summer song as well. The songs I can sing laughing and humming. The songs you have to sing with a smile on your face.
May 20
May 14, 2025
Beware of what you see. For all you see is not what you seek. She can smell of sublime growth in an innocent meadow. Sturdier than the tree, and mellower than the mud, but shadier than the snake. I hope it is poisoned wind whispering rather than your
May 14
May 10, 2025
Hole me under the roots of a big old tree. Tell me I belong to no one and nobody belong to me. Let every leaf hold my memory. Let every sway forget my worry. Slow the time so every second becomes an hour, every day-a month. Do not wither the way thin
May 10
April 30, 2025
The letter I wrote to you is still with me. You were like the piece of flesh I dared not abandon. You were suppose to be there tomorrow. You were suppose to smile when I met the love of my life. You were suppose to be my companion even as my teeth ro
Apr 30
April 12, 2025
I will not speak of it. For if I utter, the wind might wither it. The time may gnaw at the heart of it. I will not unviel it. For if I open, the air could crumble it. The world would tear it to trashes. I will not touch it. For if I sense it, it can
Apr 11
April 06, 2025
I crushed my good, just to let you trample it. I swooned over your rendezvous and watched mine burn. When the midnight arrived, I should have held my skirt and ran into the woods. Let the wild nature swallow me then let you suck the glee in me. But I
Apr 05
March 28, 2025
The price of blinding light is abysmal dark. I twirled in the sun for so long that I failed to recognise the maisma filling every gap of my organs. Every event was in order yet even breathing was a task. The heart was too loud. I saw nobody. There wa
Mar 28
March 25, 2025
But I forgive you. Forgive you for your foolishness. For your naivety. Your yearning. Amidst the invigorating colors, you lost your art. You listened to them instead of the child inside. But I will forgive you. After all, if not me than who? You are
Mar 25
March 22, 2025
I let it conquer me for I feared being left behind. I stood by as the noise invaded my mind. I did not forsee the pungent odor. I was immature that way. I was inexperienced in such trade. So I nurtured the hay, let it climb like an infection. Like a
Mar 22
March 20, 2025
She is the queen of your dreams, the mate of your soul, the flame of your twin and the bow of your cupid. Flying above the pastle cloud, she swims in your favourite. She embraces your twinkle. Your spark adores her. Your dream worships her. Your sens
Mar 19
March 14, 2025
We sang high in the mountains, where the yeti huffs. We weaved our story in a divine prophecy to come. We were the tales hidden in the myths. Our moments, a culture to be passed. Generations of faith kneaded our threads. We believed that the himalaya
Mar 13
March 13, 2025
Eating my emotions like a hungry swamp. I cannot escape it. Insecurity. Hatred. Anxiety. Loneliness. Helplessness.You only spare these on moon days.  They whisper to me even as the midnight creeps by. They say they hate me. Say no one can like me, an
Mar 12
March 10, 2025
Dear ghost,After all the sunlight, the cold came again to terrorise me. It slices my epidermis and the silence threatens my soul. Since the last transgression, a bone have been stuck in my bed. I have dug the mattress for thousand seconds, yet... yet
Mar 09