Leaena's Dear Diary

On the 11th, I embraced my connection. On the 12th, I did not wipe every inch of my apartment. On the 13th,  I took it slow. But then I got sick.On the 14th, I worked On the 15th, I worked On the 16th, I worked like a slave, but I did something I am

I have list of all things that eats me up.  The kind of words that nudges me to shatter the mirror. The kind that enable my anxiety. Those wanton words, you said frivilously, scratches the very inch of my skin. The ones that make me want to cut my bo

Dear universe,My skin and bones know not of any ailment. But I own a diseased mind. It is with great despair that I loathfully declare that the time is seethingly lazy for me. He passes by awfully slow. My sore limps can no more bear the burden of th

Dear,It's like I am putting on a show. I am exhausted because all I do is beg. Like the curtain never closes as long as I smell a human near by. Therefore, my core is blurred. My personality a little deranged. I believe the me when no one's in the ro

1/12/25 I have been grieving lately. Not only them but also that girl who lost her dreams. What do you do when you dreamt and dreamt untill you held it in your arms. Squeezed it only for it to crumble. What if the Kingdom fell after the happily afte

Lately, I fed the shadow too much. The wet shades of winter encroaches upon my fief. I am only cultivating seeds moulded in the dark. I have uttered only flaws, only to cloak myself in it. I am too distrustful for the springs pride. The winter stays

Hey,You remember that poem,I said I will be the devil and you be the angel And we will have a discourseYou said sureWe never did.But hey,You remember I asked you againI said I will be the angel, you be the devil You said gradually But we never came a

My home is closer to the woods. As the slope ever slides with hazel nut trees, the footpath trails to an alleged farm road. We never walked till the end of the path, for it was said a scary wood spirit hid in the dark of the forest to lure you and tr

Dear ghost, I heard an odd laugh from myself today.  I need to harness kindness. Need to break myself petal by petal. Sprinkle pollen of compassion in my heart. Let the bud sprout in the cracks of my veins. Even the ground I stand on. Mould my t

I fear I will resemble you. I fear that in your likeness, no ocean of learning can colour me right. I am frightened that I shall walk the way you are vicious to her. The way you have dimmed her spirit. I am afraid that no matter how much I grow,I can

I lost my mind.

Dear ghost,The universe. The cosmos has sent me a message and I shall take it. They want me to come home and stay alone without my lovely felines. I dreamt of them but they are telling me I donot deserve them. The very first cat I owned after I found

In a shaded valley with a rustling river, the full moon dares to peek. The wind brushes the night. The music fades into my vacuum eyes. I ask the moon to sing me a melody so I could sleep this feeling away. It's awfully akin to when my hand slipped a

I could never abandon it. Its like a parasite except I am feeding on it as well. We are in a symbiotic bond, it sucks me dry yet it nourishes me. I want to tear it apart from me, and fry it. Wrap it in a dried banana leave and throw it in the clear r

Dear ghost,Being with you feels like a chill gripping me in a tunnel. I shiver in a struggle to savor sunlight at the end of it. Loving your ghost stings of a winter gone bad. Such cold reaches for all warmth, even that of a dirt. I am at lost. I kno