Leaena's Dear Diary

I bet the neighbours who heard me are like, "dafuq is she doing!Cus I've been listening to some podcast- volumes are not too loud and full on cleaning my apartment in the middle of the night. My cats are confused and want me to go to bed but they wak

Hold on to this passion like a grain of water in a drought. Forget fears that disable your courage. Know that you will never know until you climb. Be not afraid of bleeding when you break your leg.

I think you can measure my truth in bottle of mirth.. I am your joy, the crystal of your truth. In every corner, you remember the vibration of my honesty. I am genuine so you are drunk in the bluntness. You can say I am drunk of life. That I represen

Tonight, I want to drink til I forget this longing. I want to be tipsy enough to remember why I had to. But I know it's more for the want to forget the shame of holding on to you. Therefore, I did not call my friends and walked in a bar. I just sat d

There are dreams that have passed and stayed. The dreams that stayed clung desperately like a lover unable to let go of her cold partner. The dreams that passed- faded like a bubble aware of the world. I talk not of dreams that dissolve in the wake o

Dear ghost,Have you ever feared your strength might not live up to your desire? For every applause I heard, I took one step backwards- afraid that my capacity will fail my dreams. I named it insecurities. I grabbled at the ideas of holding the trophi

I want to burrow beneath the sand of summers shore. Let the earth swallow my shame. I have forgotten I need to grow. Dehydrated, entomb my roots of nutrients. Let it reach for the river underground.  Unlearn my pride to enshrine my patience. I am no

On the pavement, you shall not know me. When the ink dries, I am carrying rainbow on my shoulder. I have left the darkness in the curve of my letters.  I will offer you giggles and sweetness if you can bear it. But be it true or not, is yours to deci

Dear ghost, Maybe, love is not for me. Cascade of romance is an excursion too costly to ask. Perhaps, it demands ingenuity I greatly lack, or a kindness I desperately need. I am not a half of another. Perchance, I am just merely incomplete and my ve

It's been a while since you were unraveled. You stain the very moment of my day. You encroach on every particles of my skin and bones. I have shushed you for quite a while this time but a mere second unveiled you. Do you like the way you ruin me? So

The sunset holds my secret. The mountain adores my vices. The trees believe my lies. And the summer forgives my resentment. The sadness that passes by, only nature can sooth it. My grudges are tamed by sunlight. I only purr for the mother earth. Only

On some humid summer days, I need to just blink lightly to fly back to my childhood.  Feel myself sink into those grass I use to run on. Like I am still that child dipping in a pond birthed by the summer rain. The scent are so vivid I could just touc

You take your brush and paint me in your image.  You use the vibrant indigo with a hint of yellow. You want to make a flower out of my crooked head you said.You took my chin on your warm blooded hands. Gripped it to pull my bare face closer to you. Y

I always knew I was hungry for warmth. But I did not know I would burn others for that ever lost heat. I would like to apologize for burning your woods. Let you burn alone just for the warmth to pour from your slender hand. I have been cold for too l

I like the kind of music I can breathe in. The kind that feels inhaling. The ones that leave you out of breath. But then I love the summer song as well. The songs I can sing laughing and humming. The songs you have to sing with a smile on your face.