I think it's inevitable that I'm going to at least attempt suicide one day. Even if I don't want to, it's going to happen. Something will push me over the edge and I'll do it. I'll ignore the consequences and try to kill myself, and hey, maybe someone will save me and I'll get a second chance, or not.
I was thinking the other day, my friends function fine without me, whenever I'm not there, they're fine. They still have fun. It doesn't really matter if I'm there or not, because they're having fun still, and happy. If I killed myself, I wonder how they'd react. Maybe they'd get over it quickly and just move on, and still be happy. I don't need to make my friends happy, I just need to be there to see that they are. I just like to see that they're happy, and not sad like I am. My friends are fine when I'm not there, so why should I stay?
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I have all the time in the world to decide whether or not I'm going to stay, I will wait till after the concert.
I don't think I would write notes, because my friends can be happy on their own. Why give them something to be sad about? I love my friends, so much. I love everyone.