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I think it's inevitable that I'm going to at least attempt suicide one day. Even if I don't want to, it's going to happen. Something will push me over the edge and I'll do it. I'll ignore the consequences and try to kill myself, and hey, maybe someone will save me and I'll get a second chance, or not.
I was thinking the other day, my friends function fine without me, whenever I'm not there, they're fine. They still have fun. It doesn't really matter if I'm there or not, because they're having fun still, and happy. If I killed myself, I wonder how they'd react. Maybe they'd get over it quickly and just move on, and still be happy. I don't need to make my friends happy, I just need to be there to see that they are. I just like to see that they're happy, and not sad like I am. My friends are fine when I'm not there, so why should I stay?

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I have all the time in the world to decide whether or not I'm going to stay, I will wait till after the concert.
I don't think I would write notes, because my friends can be happy on their own. Why give them something to be sad about? I love my friends, so much. I love everyone.

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HurtieFeb 27, 2020

R u crazy , u can't do that .... life is beautiful and trust me , everything is temporary so as your problems .... love yourself and live for yourself ♡

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Kitty quinn 143Feb 26, 2020

Hi, my name is Kitty, I am 13 years old and I recently have been suffering the same things as you I recently have been having bad dreams and nightmares about how everybody hates me and wants to hurt me, because that's how I feel in real life, my dad is never been there for me, he's always been gone. My mom constantly yells at me and tells me how I am not growing and changing I have a little sister who is 4, she is also a challenge, I always have to watch her and babysit her and deal with how mean she is, and I can't change that I try to be nice and I just get more screamed at a couple of times, I have thought about killing myself and stopped and thought, same thing you thought, what would people feel and thinking, if I really was gone permanently, would my mom cry about it forever, would my sister be lonely without me, but my grandparents have nobody to leech off of for help would my so called "friends" miss me, I guess I'll never know, but then I think about it more. I'm also homeschooled and it's hard and not being a part of everything, and also thinking about what it would be like to go to school so far, what I have heard is it is difficult, and it's almost like being in jail. I don't know all I have to say is that I know exactly how you feel because. I'm constantly stressed out and worried about what people think and if I changed my hair or changed my clothes. when people yell at me and care, I've also dealt with cutting off my hair, because I thought I wasn't good enough shaving off my eyebrows, because I thought nobody would love an ugly girl like me, but I realized do I love myself, yeah, I do, I love everything about myself, my amazing loving personality, who would die for anybody, even a random stranger on the street, do I love my eyes and my hair yeah I do and I'm sure that you are an amazing person as well, everybody is beautiful and unique, an amazing. Even the meanest, worst people in the world are still amazing and can change, I am believing you. Do not risk your life for something like that love Kitty Quinn. 🥰

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My secretsFeb 25, 2020

Noo u cant

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