1/11/20

I emailed myself a question when I was thinking during school yesterday.

What would have happened if I had gone to the bathroom that day?

I don't know what would have happened. Nothing good. I would have been bleeding in the school, and would probably caused an ambulance to be called then be put on suicide watch. Nothing good. But I didn't want to stop myself. I wanted to want to because I felt I deserved it

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