September 25, 2019

Dancing with his demons...

Of all the reasons I feel inloved with him...  That we both came from addiction...  Because before we even became a we we had talked before an even then I felt comfortable around him...  Felt I could talk to him n share some of my soul...  Because I didn't act like something I asnt around him... Then when he came...  He brought out parts of me I didn't even know I still had...  That I hadn't seen in year...  Emotions I hadn't felt in years...  I brought out god honest laughter I had heard in years...  He made me scared to fall inlove with him... Because I knew he was capable of completely an utterly breaking me past the point of return...  Because I was already falling for him the moment e spoke on the phone before he came.... And by me trying to deny it an thinking I was protecting myself I ruined it all by lieing... His soul still sings to me...  He still brings out a happiness that scares me but this time because I know I've already lost him an I am Idioatclly still  hoping for one last chance that he hasn't given up on my competly  .. Like an idiot I'm letting my heart believe it...  But I know it's not true...  But it doesn't chance the fact that I feel I've ith all of him..  The good and the bad...  The light and his darkness...  And nothing could make me think bad of him.  Or hate him...  Even hen he alks away... Because e both accepted one anothers demons... 

I love him...  Not for the way he silenced my demons but for the way his demons danced with mine.....