Dear Diary,
One of the conundrums I keep dealing with is the battle for women’s mind. It usually occurs when my relationship with that woman is going well, and it’s likely a 50/50 thing on how it actually occurs.
What I find interesting is that I’ve NEVER felt, or acted upon being enticed to conflict a woman I’m connected to, to go against what she wants. In other words I don’t player hate, but virtually every woman that I’v e gotten along with has been pulled away from me in some form or another. Right now it’s occurring with the editor of the zine I write for. (If it’s not that then, she's just being a bitch for some other reason. Hmmm, I wonder why???)
Anywho, she was keen enough to either steal or “update” her zine cosmetically after she helped upload mine. I looked at it as “payment”, but the vibe just is n’t right. I’m a respect person, and I just don't feel it anymore. This s*** always happens at times, when I actually have time to work more.
As for my clients, I got shorted. I’m kinda in limbo about the money I’m allowed to pull in, and if there are angels or spiritual guides, they are not helping me in this area currently. I’m unsure why. (The old company I worked for has another woman runner there, who has also been s****y with me, but she just moves things around. She does not really own the company.)
At the end of the day this is all prolly envy because of who I am inside. When you rise, the waves of life, fluctuate also. I just have to be patient, and accept that for all these take aways, there are gains approaching.